The Bigger Person

Since i have about 3 more hours to kill i figured i should give this blog an update. Its been a while ;)

Everything has been peachy lately, probably because there aren't much to do accept settling in, adapting to my new schedule, and sorting out my scholarship registration. I'm still getting use to spending time alone since i like having company. Though i have to admit it does get lonely sometimes *sobs*. I try to fill my time as best as i could, by running errands or entering the lab during the day, and play sports or jog in the evening but at night is when i feel time is moving super slow.

This is when my mind got so worked up contemplating about my life decisions, or memories of the past (good and bad), or friends that came and left. Or things that should've but didn't happen. Simply put, anywhere the train of thoughts decided to take a turn.

Tonight i thought about pride and ego, and how it affects people's relationships be it with family, friends or someone we truly care about. How many friendships are shattered because two people refuse to talk to each other after a big fight? Or love that never made because neither wanted to make the first move? This sounds cheesy i know, but that's what happen when pride is clouding our judgement. We've all experienced rejection, at least i know i did. And it scarred me for a lifetime. So i understand if people build walls to keep people away because it was meant to protect themselves from experiencing the same thing again. People have came knocking, sure, but the moment things get weird i spaced out. Even though now that i'm close with someone i can't stop thinking "no, he'll never like me like that" or "pretty sure he'll leave". Oops did i just bared my soul?:p  so thats that..

Ok so..ego..yes. If it ever happens that we got into a cold war with someone, its best to be the bigger person. i guess its better to get our pride hurt a little than losing a friend. What does it mean to be the bigger person? It takes someone with a huge heart to be one. One who is first to ask for forgiveness, first to contact an old mate who strays away or first to forgive those who annoy them. we're in the age old enough to know better anyway.

i think that is all. thnk you for reading. nak bersiap ambil lin di larkin. bye~